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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 21:08:14 GMT

FUCK YEAH!!!!! FINALLY!!! I WENT THROUGH HELL LITERALLY JUST TO GO THIS FUCKING CONCERT...AND IT FUCKING ROCKED!!!!! IT WAS SOO BRUTAL AND INTENSE I SWEAR I WAS ABOUT TO DIE IT FELT LIKE A HUGE FUCKING MOSH PIT...AND BEST OF ALL I CROWD SURFED!! OMFG!!!! IT WAS THE BEST FUCKING DAY OF MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!! I SOO WANNA DO IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I GOT SO HARDCORE N SHIT I WAS ROCKIN MY ASS OUT!!!!!! ....there was also this one bitch that was getting on my fucking nerves i was about to punch her i swear to God. lol. Everyone was soo crammed together, I was up against this really sexy dude, and my ""danger zone"" was right up against his ass. Omg i got so fucking horny i was like fucking him. I loved every second of it. WOOH!!!!! THE FUCKING USED ROCKS!!!! SO DOES FUCKING MY CHEMICAL FUCKING ROMANCE!!!! KILLSWITCH ENGAGE!! SENSES FAIL!!! AND UNDEROATH!!! WOOHH!! IT FUCKING ROCKED!!!!!!!!..and If u didn't get to go I'm sorry....BUT IT WAS SO FUCKING BRUTAL AND AWESOMEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Owe. I'm still sore from it all. My neck hurts from head bangin and go crazy so much....owwiieeee. I swear in that crowd u build fucking muscle..I feel like I've lost like 5 pounds now. I was soaked with fucking sweat it was so fucking brutal. lol. I'm so glad I went. I really needed to. Just to get away from EVERYTHINNGGG!!!

k Wellp. Later!

---X+Stud Muffin+X---

new site::: www.xanga.com/XXGodZDeFecTXX

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AWW LOOK WHAT MAGGIE WROTE FOR ME!!!!!!!!!::::::::::::::::::::

i dont wanna be ya reason to cry...

don let people be ya reason to die....

ill be ya wings and let ya fly...

just give me a chance to change ya mind....

just give it sum time...

i promise you.....

your problems will go away......

i will do nething to keep ya here anther day....just let me be ya addiction....

let me be ya restriction....

ill be nething ya want me to be....

as long as ya stay here w/ me...

please, im on my knees beggin...

dont leave me cryin....

im not gonna stop tryin...

ill help ya w/ nething....

ill let ya be my everything....

just stay here w/ me...

i wanna be able to hold.....

dont let me be the old photo ya bend and fold....

i love you so much....

well thats wat your were once told.....<333

Sunday, February 20, 2005

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 00:25:49 GMT

Wow..Okay...only two days and my weekend is already like.......wow...Okay welp...after school on Friday I took Brittany home....then my mom found out about my lesbianess/gayness/bisexualness...so she knows about me n **Her!**....so yeah..i cried for a while cause she kept screamin at me like I did something wrong.....she accepts me..but she's still trying to deal with it..and she thinks it's **Her!** fault....but it's NOT!......so I went home and called **Her!** and told her i was comin to pick her up to take her over to Vicki's with me....then I picked **hEr** and Brittany up to go to Vicki's house for Seance. So total it was Me, Vicki, <33Her!<33, Brittany, and Ariane. The Seance was awesome..Everyone cried. including me...we talked to Ryan Newsome, MY AUNT!!, relatives of Vicki, relatives of **Her!**, and relatives if Brittany. We figured out how Ryan really died....but I can't tell you....all I can say is...Ryan said "suck my dick" to some dude.....lol...and I found out where my cousin's real dad is..He's in Jamestown.....and I've got a whole bunch of everything i can tell you..but I'd be goin on forever. lol...but yeah...I found out that my aunt is my guardian angel....YEY!!!..i hope we can have another Seance soon....OH! And Jesus Christ and Satan were there today too!! You don't have to belive me..and i already know that you DON'T but I'm just sayin...there Demons that came today, and they made Vicki's nose bleed everytime they came...It was pourin down blood at one time I Swear To God!! and the demins...and.....satan......said that they hated Vicki and **HeR!!** because they had witchcraft symbols on.....and they said they liked me n Brittany..which is weird because i had Chrstian wiccan symbol on my hand and brittany just didn't have nething...and yeah...Jesus Christ saved us..then he told us to burn the witchcraft necklace and when **ShE!** was holding it in her hand....it started to burn...which was freaky..So yeah..everything to that...LONGGG STOORRRYY!!!. But it did change my whole religion and everything. I'm christian wiccan now. GO ME! lol. I'm bout to go look up some more info on it and try to order some books and spells n shit.....it was so cool.....I talked to Angels!!! and Jesus Christ was in the same room as me!!!!! AHH!!! lol. That Seance was an experience of a lifetime..I will NEVER forget it......then....the night of the first Seance(last night) Ryan waswatching White Chicks with us lol..even tho we couldn't see him..but he said he sitting in Vicki's chair....then we heard his footsteps in her room as we asked him to sit with us....::::::::oooo!!!!!!! i smell something goooodddd!!!!!!......okay off subject:::::::::....but neways...**She!**<3 was too scared to go the bathroom alone..so i went in there with her. lol. I had to stand in the shower tho. lol....then afterwards when she was..."""finished""" she kissed me! and Vicki n Ariane n Brittany were listening in on us. lol. Then the whole night they were like, "OO!! C'MONNN PLEASE KISS!!!!" lol..then once they fell asleep it was just me and **Her!** still awake..so we kept drawing on Vicki and Brittany...cause Ariane couldn't stay the night.lol..But before Araine left, Araine n vicki kept hittin on me n **Her!**..Okay but neways....when Brittany n Vicki were asleep, Me n **Her!** slept next to each other!! yeyz!!..I was gonna kiss her cheek while she was asleep..but i never did.....OH! And when **She!* was crying about Ryan and everything cause she was so happy..yet also sad....I whiped her tears away for her^^and then when I cried cause of my aunt.**she** held me in her arms.....then we held hands around the house a lil....yey!!..well neways....I was talkin to her on the phone earlier.....she said that Ryan had followed her home and wrote"Hello" on her TV screen...he said he sits at the end of her bed at night..i LOVE this weekend so far..it's been so awesome....well....I'm gonna wrap things up for now...I'm gonna go study my !!beliefs!!

Oh Yeah! AND THE DRESDEN DOLLS ARE COMING HERE IN APRIL!!!!! I HAVE TO GGGGOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ((thanx Mellio for Tellin Meh!))

<333--------!!!I love her to Death!!!--------<333

Love.

---X+Stud Muffin+X---

p.s. If you wanna know the details about Ryan..or nething about the Seance..just ask n lemme know....but only ask if ur gonna Believe me..I don't wanna argue about what I witnessed......so yeah...Just lemme kno..I've got PLENTY of Details....TRUST ME!

---------<3<33<333<3333<3333<3333<3333<3333<3333R.I.P. Ryan Newsome!, Tina Kosloske!, Devin's Family members n friends that passed away!, Vicki's familt members n friends that passed away!, Brittany's family members n friends that passed away!, Corey Mask's Mom!, Lori Coleman!!(we talked to her too^^), Alfred's brother and sister!, and all the children that were with me n Vicki..including Helen..ur handprints will never go away on Vicki's wall...we will cherish u all Forever!! R.I.P. IN HEAVEN AND EARTH..WE LOVE U ANGELS TO DEATH!!! Even the lost children that wonder our lives....WE LOVE YOU ALL!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LETTING US HAVE THIS EXPERIENCE!!!!<3333<3333<3333<3333<3333<3333<333<33<3---------

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 21:16:24 GMT

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Ville Harmine Valo IS THE SEX!!

haha Micah's soo cute!!!!!...he reminds me of a penguin....lol..PENGUINS ROCK!!.They waddle..waddleing's cool....I LOVE TO WADDLE!!!

++++++++I Love Her To DeAtH++++++++

I wanna go to the Taste of Chaos Tour..but i can't..I wanna go to the Slipknot concert....but it's too much $$MoNeY$$....and I wanna go to the Green Day concert..but i think I'm being ditched.......this sux....i have to go my high school orientation thingie real soon..i hope i can talk to **her** b4 i go..her fucking BROTHER's on the fucking phone.....she LOVED the cd I Gave her...she told me how much she loves me....i wanna make out with her tomorrow....i hope i can. lol....well...bye.

++++++++I Love Her To DeAtH.....Her and ONLY Her++++++++

---X+Stud Muffin+X---

p.s. Turns out some dude friend of Jeannie's has my same nickname!! lol. AHH OMG!!! HAHA LMFAO!! COREY MASK IS ON CHANNEL 46!!! I WAS ON THIS SHOW BEFORE!!! LOL. Twice! haha ok bye.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 03:28:55 GMT

Wellz...my internet's been off for a lil..sozz..::::::::::::

-On V-Day I got 7 carnations.....but Drew ate one of them.....and I got a hello kitty thong from Maggie.............................o.o....................and I got Devin a HUGE card and a whole bunch of shit haha poor Andy....and I got something from her but i hadn't got it yet cause she said it was too big and her mom wouldn't let her bring it to school...lol..well neways....

-The Saturday before V-Day I got a girlfriend!!

-Friday n saturday i had district chorus....it was soo much fun..i miss it!..wah.

-Today i had school.. as usual...then @ lunch I felt special...and I cried during Chrorus cause of that song.....wah....After school i walked around the entire school with Kelly for a loonng time cause we were waiting on Vicki TIL ABOUT 5:00....Then i went to Vicki's house....i made a cd for**s.o.s.** of songs that make me think of her...hmmm also i took some photos of me in the time being that i was desperately bored and i had nothing else to do..so I also made backgrounds for them....yeah...i like these pictures tho...hmm....okaz..well.....Friday I'm goin over Vicki's for the Seance to try and contact Ryan...**R.I.P. RYAN!! WE LOVE U FOREVER!!** ..and MAYBE AND HOPEFULLYY!!!! i can stay the night at Devin's house that night....cause i DO NOT want to stay at my dad's house.....uh uh no! Oh! and I'm "Wiccan" now.....but ya..it's cool i guess..i got my Wiccan friends to help me out with whatever the hell it is that I'm doing..lol..newho....welp....I LOVE S.O.V.E.S.!!!!!!!!!!!!! K....I'm gonna go I'll write some other time....Later.

---X+Stud Muffin+X---

p.s. I Love S.O.S!! ok bye..

SLIPKNOT CONCERT!! MARCH 18TH!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOTT!!!!! OH YEAHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...sorry ya can't go Casey! :) .....

Okay bye.

Friday, February 11, 2005

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 03:59:28 GMT

she finally said it.....but is it true?

I had a blast today. I went over Whitney's house after school. She gave me an awesome watch, awesome poster, awesome magazine, awesome black n white arm warmers, some skull and crossbones shoelaces, a patch that says I <3 Lesbians, an awesome spider bracelet, and a marylin manson picture, and she also let me borrow her red and black knee socks. I love The Used..I'm listening to them now....It was fun over Whitney's house...we fell asleep. lol. for bout 4 hours....her fucking hamsters kept keeping me up they're so fucking loud!! good god! Me and her talk about everything....and nothing...I'm so happy she's my cousin. She's soo cool! lol. welp Tomorrow i have rehearsal ALL DAY for District Chorus. Then we have to perforn it Saturday...so that's ONE DAY AND A HALF of LEARNING, and reheasing all 6 songs.....in ONE day.....well I mean that's what i auditioned for isn't it?..I got the third highest score out of all the sopranoes in Hampton who auditions out of about 400 people or something like that...GO ME! welp. I'm gonna go....my mom's bein a bitch.....wel..Later.

---X+Stud Muffin+X---

..I don't get to c her tomorroowwwwwww:'(

p.s. TIMMAY!!

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 05:36:47 GMT

this = smexxyy!!!!

..wow..i have no best friends then....lol...

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 01:22:35 GMT

If only she knew......how much I love her. The comfort of her voice just warms me up inside, and knowing she cares makes my world worth living for. But If only she could feel the same way. She could be my valentine, but I don't feel any love. She's so beautiful she doesn't know it. All I want is her..but she'll never know how many tears I shed for her. The pain kills me soo deep inside, I just wanna die. But Knowing that I'll be leaving her I just could never......I want her so bad:'(..If she only knew how much this means to me...I wish she could feel this too.............:'(

Saturday, February 05, 2005

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 19:22:44 GMT

umm..Okay..now I'm crying..my mom just came in here and stared screaming at me for no fucking reason cursin at me n shit..hmmmm and she wonders why the fuck I curse...GEE I FUCKING WONDER!!!!.......and i was just sitting here talking on the phone.........god damn she's gonna make me start cutting again I swear...omg these fucking tears wont seem to stop shedding.........

things that are on my mind...besides ***that special person***::::::::::

Sexiest Man Alive = Ville Harmine Valo::::::::

hours later.....

I just got done pouring down crying......If you wanna know why just ask....but i hope it never happens (what made me cry) :'(:'(:'(:'(:'( I don't think I'd be able to survive.

<<I want that!!!

Welp..tomorrow's school!!!!!!..Today is Sunday..I'm just using the same box...) I get to see Devin!!!!yey!!!!!!! lol. She's so cuutee!!!!^^ i just wanna hug her to death!! lol. maybe I'll just kiss her. haha.newho....I'm sad.........I'mso uggwwyyyyy!!!:'( I'm gonna cry. I wish i was prettyy...:'(

Saturday, February 05, 2005

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 04:16:31 GMT

~ * ~I.O.T.D.~ * ~

ok..well...Vicki's getting annoyed by me......I'm just gonna...not talk nemore....well here..all of my feelings for today:::

<3333<3333 hmmmmm ne last words??

p.s.

Animates::::

~"Rubber Duckkieeeee, You're the Onneeee"~

Picturez::::

IDK WHO THESE DUES ARE BUT THEY SURE ARE FUCKING SEXY!!..The Dude In The Middle Is Mine!!!!!!!!!!

Omg ok...The band is called Icon and the Black Roses...they are my new favorite band! yey!! they rock!! I'm listening to them now!!! *eeekkkk* oo Sooo Seexxxyyy

K here's da memberzzzzzz:::::::

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 23:57:41 GMT

I dedicate the following song to a very special girl!!!!^_^ (the song is on my playlist^)

One Year, Six Months

-Yellowcard

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I'm falling into memories of you, things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

I'm falling into memories of you, things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you

I'm falling into memories of you ,things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you ,things we used to do

kk....BYE!!!^_^

---X+Stud Muffin+X---

p.s. umm ok Ariane, I love ya like a sis n all..but, quit ur Drama!..ur bitching is fucking annoying the hell out of me!! God Damn!!

Oh..and uhh Robert's Vicki's so u better back the fuck off...don't ever try n take him if they EVER break up..which they WONT.so yeah..u better watch ur back.